Welcome To The Party
A party of two, a journey that’s been guided by the Spirit of Truth.
There are many ways I could invite you on this journey. I’ve struggled for a while now to fully encapsulate what I believe this blog will be in words, but for what it’s worth, let’s start with where I’ve been. If you are familiar with my testimony, you’ll know that my life changed drastically in November of 2022, when I encountered the Spirit of the living God and discovered the only way to Him is through Jesus. A complete 180 from the beliefs I held at that point. If I were to share what they were, I would need a new blog post entirely. But to summarise, Jesus was not part of it. I believed in a universal creative power from which all things came, but I didn’t see it as a personal being, one that could love and be loved, feel and be felt. My understanding of God was that I was it, a fraction at least, that we all were, from the birds, to trees, to the insects that crawl beneath.
But mercy began to speak. And showed me the lies hidden in the truth I was trying to seek. Jesus.
That’s where the old story ends and the new one begins. With Him.
Over the last four years, God has transformed every area of my life. Not all at once, not without resistance, and definitely not without days, weeks, even months of uncertainty, fear and deep loneliness. But slowly, faithfully, lovingly, He began rebuilding what the world, sin, fear and deception had distorted.
He taught me how to walk differently. To live rooted in truth instead of feelings alone. To receive grace instead of striving. To understand love not as a fleeting emotion, but as a person revealed through Jesus Christ. Upon reflection of what to write next, Colossians 3:3 comes to mind with insight I’m only just coming to understand.
“For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God.”
Colossians 3:3
Many people have their opinions on what specific verses mean, but today I’m realising that walking with Christ is death. Death to what we’ve previously known about everything, and submitting to a new way of understanding, living, being. That the wisdom found in Psalm 111:10 is the ultimate and only prosperous way forward. And not because God is a tyrant who desires for His creation to be nothing more than robotic slaves, but because of a trust and reverence in who He is, and that His way is good, loving and faithful.
“The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom; all who follow His precepts have good understanding. To Him belongs eternal praise.”
Psalm 111:10
Death is painful. Dark and lonely, but in Christ it’s not the end, and neither is our story once we are joined to Him. And so this blog is an invitation into that journey. The lessons, the revelations, the stretching, the healing, the unlearning and rebuilding. I’ll be sharing the wisdom God has revealed through my own transformation. After years of abuse, trauma and emotional isolation, God has and is still renewing relationships, desires, dreams, fears, purpose and, most importantly, my identity and intimacy in Him.
I’m not writing from a place of complete wholeness, nor one that has all the answers, but rather as someone who has gone slightly ahead and knows how heavy life can be, to the point where you only desire death.
The first prophetic word I ever received in prayer was a simple verse, and that was:
“Afflicted city, lashed by storms and not comforted, I will rebuild you with stones of turquoise and lapis lazuli.”
Isaiah 54:11
He who promised is faithful. And if He’s done it for me, rest assured He can do it for you.
If you let Him, if you can remain in the quiet, a party of two, He will lead you on the journey back to the truth.
NM
